Thursday, August 5, 2010

pathetic vent

It really stinks when you put everything aside to work on something. And you work insanely hard to do it WELL. And then it turns out terribly.

I am so sick of these floors. And I am so tired of them looking beautiful until I put polyurethane on them and then they look dirty. I would not care if they just weren't pretty...but dirty??? Almost every home we've lived in has looked dirty.....in such a way that I cannot make it look clean. And I know it's not important. I know none of us or sick or anything, but I have always wanted to live in a CLEAN PLACE. Somewhere that looks fresh and clean. I don't know why I'm obsessed with this, since I'm such a slob, but it has always upset me.

And we have put all of our resources...time, strength, money into doing these stupid floors and they all look horrid. I cannot even imagine how terrible Lucy's and Iris' will look when we get done since we bought such light pink paint for theirs. My head hurts thinking of how much we've done to try to make this look nice and how awful it has ended up looking. And we have neither the time nor money nor anymore desire to do anything else to them. We're simply going to have dirty looking floors.

Yes, I do realize how petty I'm being. I do realize they're just floors.

The end.

7 comments:

  1. i too hate dirty floors. my house is by no means spotless - i have a lot of piles and laundry baskets full of "things" that need to find a home. but if my kitchen tiles are dirty, i HAVE to clean them. that's basically every day.

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  2. oops that was from me. my brother in law was logged into google.

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  3. Sorry dear - pathetic vent any time. I feel your pain!!!

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  4. camille-funny :) i was like- who on earth is joel

    Gretchen- thanks

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  5. I'm so sorry and feel it with you. I get tired of cleaning gross baseboards or grout. If i scrub I want to see shiny white! At least Heaven will have crud-free baseboards and floors and grout!

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  6. I feel your pain :( I am sorry that you are going through this with your floors..but dont feel bad for venting..we need that or our heads will explode :)

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  7. Maybe you could think of them as antiqued! :) Love you!

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